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tatsuha9for the beta~ chants_xan</lj>for the beta XD
chants_xanand arashi_pandesalThis day started out pretty fucked up. And I do mean FUCKED UP. But I decided to just stop it with the negativity and to just think happy thoughts. I don't want to be sad any longer. Happiness is a choice~ There are so many things that can cheer us up. We need only look for them. THEREFORE. I shall choose to be happy.
Grand PaChocolate:
Yesterday in our Geog 1 class, there was this unbelievable flow of chocolate. Especially for me and my groupmates. See, last week, through my representation, we had won a group activity and thus deserved a prize. Yesterday, due to another win in yet another group activity, we were promised another prize. The group who sponsored the activity gave away some Curly Tops to everyone in the class as a concolation prize. Then they proceeded with their report.
After a few mind numbingly boring minutes of population geography, I felt a slight tap on my shoulder. I looked over and saw a pack of Hershey's nuggets thrusted up onto my face. It was our prize from last week's game. Yey! So, dividing it among our group, we were extremely happy because it was yet another two pieces of chocolate to munch on and distract us from the lecture. Again a few minutes passed when I heard the rustle of plastic behind me. Sure enough, last week's group was passing around a pack of Champion chocolate candies as a consolation prize too. So we all took some of that. Everyone was laughing because we had a LOT of chocolates on our hands and nobody wanted any more. In the end, even though I didn't get to participate in the Stat Student Council's Grand Pakain (or any of the Grand Pakains in fact) I still experienced a Grand PaChocolate~
Skewed Pair:
Tonight was my very first experience of Skewed Pair!! Weeeh~ Tanoshikatta!!! XD Okay fine, I didn't actually participate as a contestant, but I helped and cheered! And I loved every minute of it. I mean, I was never very active in any activities but this year, things are changing!! I'm beginning to care! XD And I'm not the only one! There were a lot of us! I mean, I was shocked! Our batch is starting to bond! We had so many pictures together! There were a lot of new faces for me and certainly a lot of familiars~ Half of our block (O2!!!) was present! XD
Skewed Pair is am activity sponsored by the School of Statistics Student Council (and their many sponsors~ XD) wherein 2 representatives for each year level (one boy, one girl) will compete in a crossdressing beauty pageant of epic proportions. XD Oh god, the lifetime of memories. I will definitely never forget this night. Boys in bras and dresses. Now how could you EVER forget that. XD Everyone was so good! And I especially applaud the representatives for my batch, John and Kim who were dressed as Dyesebel and Panday respectively. The Senior girl reminded me a lot of Justine Zaraspe and I was honestly thrown back into my HS days with fond nostalgia.
There were a lot of quirks and surprises and I was laughing all night long.
I will definitely watch Skewed Pair next year. XD
A little over a week ago, part of my past came tumbling back from the shadows I thought I had banished it to. And then it was like how it used to be, my feelings getting the better of my rationality, my ability to see reality.
I want to stop. I can't live like this, forgetting, remembering, hurting, then forgetting again. I have to stop the cycle.
The universe agrees. The world's been dropping little hints, subtle signs that I am pathetic and should move on with my life. My lucky necklace snapped. Rather, the feeble black yarn holding the five bottles of colorful spirits snapped. That yarn. It's a sign, ne? I mean it's been a long time coming. Maybe it really is time. The unvierse dictates it.
Today, I bought yarn. Lot's of it. Despite the fact that I have 4.75 meters of that black yarn still stored up in my chest of memories. I bought yarn. Sleek, black, new yarn, untarnished with tears or memories or pain.
I will let go.
Finally.
You have failed my test.
I won't bother with you anymore.
I will have changed.
I will start to brood.
And hate you.
But for your sake.
You will never know.
chants_xan</lj> XD chants_xanfor the beta. Well, it’s my first time writing something like this so any feedback would be greatly appreciated. I hope I can finish it~ I do love the concept. midori_kirei. Happy Birthday, whenever it might be. XD The Ohmiya will follow I swear. But for now, this~ Thanks to chants_xanand tatsuha9for the beta~sundaecone because she gave me a steadfast determination to finally finish this chapter that had been rotting unfinished in my PC for about a month I think. I like this chapter. It was very easy to write even though it took a long time. I feel good about it. XD I hope you guys like it. Sorry that I update so sporadically, that’s why I’m happy I got to 2000+ words.. To compensate~ Thanks as always to my anomic_tmand chants_xan for all the helpage. You guys are so rockage. XD Dear Mama,
It's been 10 years since you left us. Back then I was just a small girl in pigtails, holding a delapitated old doll, and now, I'm 18 years old and I've turned in my dolls for idols. I can't say I've changed much though, since I still am pretty much the same girl you left behind. But I just wanted to assure you that my life's going well.
I don't know if you worry about me. Or even if you can. But please know that even though I lost you so early in life, that I'm doing okay. I'm already in my 2nd year of college in UP. I mean, you wanted that didn't you? You always thought I'd go do great things. And I really hope that I'll be able to fulfill that dream. The last thing you said to me was that I should study well. And I have. I am, still. I hope I'm doing you proud.
I hope you're doing okay. I'm sure you are. I'm sure you're in the happy place. You were always such a good person. Sometimes I think about how I would be now if you didn't die. I probably would still have my faith in religion. I'm sorry, Ma. I've lost it. I don't even go to Church anymore. In that part of my life, I've failed you. But I hope you'll understand, even though I don't.
My life is kind of balancing well right now. I still miss you, though.
But I'll have to apologize. I don't remember all that much about you. You left too early, I guess. But I do remember how good of a mother you were to me. And how in your last moments, you still kept me in your mind even though I probably wasn't too good of a daughter to you. For that I apologize, so very fiercely.
I still regret I didn't tell you I love you. And now, I think I'm afraid of those words. I keep misusing them. I know it might be too late. But this is the only way I can tell you now. I love you, Ma. Thanks for everything.
Let's just both be happy?
XOXO
Jek~
ohmiya from thefrug and I thought it might be fun. I was apprehensive at first because I’m not too good at themed writing especially not at time-pressured writing. And this challenge is a combination of both. But since chants_xan told me it’s fun, I thought I’d give it a shot. Hahaha. Sorry they suck and some are incoherent with the song.chants_xan and my mameh Anna for the beta. tatsuha9! Happy Birthday to you! I’m sorry it’s a bit late (in the day) and I know you didn’t ask for it, but I wanted to make you one. I’m just sorry that it sucks and is majorly cliché. I hope you get the pun and don’t kill me because of it. Beta-ed by my ever so lovely matsughei matsuMon. XD